As my memory rest

It's already past 1 AM.  I look at the window. I imagine the blue curtain that will soon hang in there. I wander my view to the whole space of this room, it seems to be enormous. The walls are painted white and the artworks hanging are quite vissibly attractive. I think I need to buy more pillows for this kingbed he had bought me last December, though I'm the only on who will sleep on it anyway. The street is still in the dark, it would probably rain later.

I haven't noticed the time passing, just three days ago it was already 2012 and suddenly I came to look back the bitter sweet moments of the prior year.  It  has been another 365 days of pain, laughter and love passed away and it seemed only yesterday when I read back at my diary who just turned 7 years old. In so many adventures I had, I know there had been two things that made the turning point, one is when my father passed and the other man that will soon to replace the lost love. My little jelly bean had grown to a .... Gosh I can't find the words to describe it.. its like a fish swimming inside a water bag wishing to come out! ^_^  I can't wait to see him open his eyes for the first time and I wonder how he would look like when he smile.... I just can't wait. I can't believe the other life is inside me now, beating, waiting to breathe. Now I wanna listen to Bryan White's God Gave Me You :)  

There is, however, another man who contributed the bitter sweet part of it. As Ryan Tedder sings Come Home, I began to think how soon would he be able to bring his heart back to where it truly belongs. I have always wanted to create a sanctuary on our own.  I have always wanted the wait to be over. Indeed patience is a virtue for those who wait but keeping the faith doesn't mean you are fighting for the truth you have always believed in. Sometimes the ugly truth is where the reality lies though it is not just a matter of acceptance but living with what you have chosen to decide.

The music continues to play on my playlist .... Wake me up, when September ends...

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